what i'm reading:
yiff! mag vol. 2
i read it for the articles fr.
Brainwyrms by Alison Rumfitt
CW Scat
Someone would egg him on, or he would look at some furry porn, and he’d relapse and eat his shit again. By the time I knew about him he must have been doing this long enough that he kept ending up in hospital with infections and shit from the scat-eating. The moment he got out, he would always be like, ‘Okay, that was the last time I am never eating doodie EVER again,’ a promise that everyone knew he’d break. And yeah. Then he broke it, went to hospital, came out, swore off the shit, ate it anyway, on and on and on. I … as I said, some people egged him on. They got him to take pictures and videos by the end of it. I don’t think any of us thought it would end. He seemed to enjoy it, so we were helping him out in a way. Removing his inhibitions. But then he was like, ‘Oh God, the doctors told me that if I don’t stop I’m going to die. They want to institutionalise me.’ We called him a coward and told him he had to keep going. And then he posted a video of him chowing down on his shit, one last video. That was the last we heard from him. Someone found an obituary a little while later, and someone from the hospital who knew about the case leaked some of his details.”
“Shit.”
There was a long silence.
“I wouldn’t have told you that if I wasn’t high. I shouldn’t have told you it. Sorry.”
I started listening to a 6-hour podcast from some guy about William Burroughs and Naked Lunch and he interviewed Alison about this book. I liked Tell Me I'm Worthless but... idk I just feel like it could be a lot bleaker. Too much joy in these books for me.
what i'm listening to:
Miss E... So Addictive (2001)
so many of these songs going on my gym playlist
there's something about 90s/00s rap & RnB that the modern pastiches like Erika de Casier (as much as I like her) don't quite measure up to. Is it the mixing? The vocal layering? The personalities? IDK.
Honorable mention to OutKast's outhernplayalisticadillacmuzik
what i'm watching:
castration movie vol 1: traps (2024)
i can't help but smile every time people start yelling at each other in castration movie vol. 1 cause it's so inane. and I love when Traps (the character) says something insanely out of pocket and mean to her friends. we love BPD girlies.
buy castration movie + computer hearts bundle on gumroad getting castrated with louise weard - htmljones
p.s. dump that bitch turner... i'll treat you right
something i liked:
does ACAB include unarmed security guards?
probably, but the part-timer that fills in on weekends told me about all the times he's been arrested protesting oil pipelines and coal plants. cool guy
something i hated:
my lolcow era
i've slipped into a lolcow era. since watching Alex Novell expose some guy for murder my algorithm has been awash with the second-order parasitical milieu that trades in the aftermarket dregs of crises livestreamed by the homeless and/or the mentally ill. they save the VODs, screenshot the forums and FOIA the arrest records but pontificate on "not getting involved"(!). awful. I'll watch it for hours.
a picture:
saw a weird dying bug on my walk home from work.