stuff i liked this year
Dennis Cooper
it's like something was missing from my life before I read Frisk. ive never had to read everything by an author before, but this time I did. Then I went to therapy.
Rayuela by Julio Cortézar
this is like my bible. anything that has 'eschews traditional narrative structure' in it is like catnip to me. unfortunately i had to read it linearly instead of jumping around as recommended cause i pirated an EPUB.
Shot & Chaser by E.K/bigbigtruck
i latched on to indie comics and yaoi scanlations in middle school cause i was already terminally online. tj & amal was life-changing. bigbigtruck's work just gets right to the heart of stuff. SAC is so economical with its characterizations, just fleshing out an entire Type of Guy in a few pages. And I love how much they're putting into the weather illustrations.
xhamster.com
porn does nothing for me. but I love to study it. I started getting into that on pornhub right as FOSTA-SESTA hit a
it's what you've all been waiting for
Zoloft
Everything is just kind of okay now. I still have all my bitterness and nihilism, but it's more fun and less myopic angst. I will say being medicated makes me daydream about writing, since the characters I think about are all just depression tulpas.
Sucking Dick
Let's get one thing straight: I hate sex. Sex is a pissing contest. It's been none of the things people claim it is. Once I started having sex I realized no one is interested unless I can achieve some physical feats: taking it up the ass, coming multiple times in a row, and choking on dick.
So when I say I 'like' sucking dick, it's more accurate to say I've felt the thrill of a physical act of courage. Getting a man to ejaculate in my mouth is the comparable to performing a throw in self-defense class. Now I have a way to gain power over someone.
Cranberry, Walnut and Goat Cheese Salad with Raspberry Vinaigrette and Hand-Breaded Chicken Breast
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